Business Ethics

Well I am in my second class of the school year. Do I like it? No I don’t I figured this class would be a no brainer, well I find out that I am wrong. I also learned  to write things “in your own words” means to paraphrase everything. I find that really hard to do. I really regret taking  college online. If I knew of a way to get out of it I would. right now it is too late for me because I already borrowed the money for the school. Every assignment I have, I have felt like crying because it just seems so hard for me. Everything I write has to have its resources etc. I feel like a child that wants to run away from this instead of sticking it through. I just do not feel smart enough for this school. People think online is easy but it really isn’t. You really do not have the option of getting help when you need it. I feel so disappointed in myself as well. I just feel so  stupid. I do not think there is hope for me. I feel like a failure. I want to quit so bad. I am indeed troubled. I just pray I can make it through this with out failing a class because  I sure can’t quit.

 

Ok next subject. I went to my 6 month appointment  for a check up. All is good. I have the same medications. I do not have to show back up till another 6 months.

 

Relaxation. OK on the verge of relaxation I a playing Shaiya again. This time I am a woman fighter. I am level 13 here is a picture of my character.

First class ends

This is the last week of business and society. I finished my last paper already. I just have to do two discussion boards by Sunday. I can not wait to get this class over with. I am hoping the next class is easier since it has something to do with ethics. it is 2:16 in the morning right now. I should be sleeping I bet I will soon though. I just had my first yawn of the night. I am sort of board right now. Well i now have two friends on facebook, my partner and my sister. Snuggles is also being a pain in the ass lately constantly she is barking. I am praying she grows out of it soon. She will be a year old this month. The time has flown by. Well I guess this is all i have to write nothing else is hoping through my mind.

Still in school

Well so  far I am still getting a B in business and society. Trust me I am sort of impressed the assignments are very hard for me. I also find it hard to concentrate sometimes. I have this week than next week. This class will be over with, then I will be in business and ethics. Right now I feel as though my brain is warped. The better word for it would be numb I guess. I do pray  that I will hit an easy class soon though. anyway there isn’t much to tell you all but this is what is so far. Thank you for reading.

What is going on in my world?

Well my niece and her fiancé has came down with the H1N1. I do not know how bad they are because well I have to stay away from them. Everyone in my family has too. Except my sister isn’t because it is her house and her kids. Which I am glad someone has to be there just incase. I just hope She doesn’t come down with it.

I also hope that once the h1N1 is gone her house will be safe to enter. I was invited to do some drawings on her wall. She my sister wants a Japanese style bedroom. All of us girls(sisters) are going to be in on it.

This week I will have to put my game talisman away for a while. I am not going to be at the same pace as the rest of the class instead of being a head. I had to wait because of one assignment I have to do on the discussion boards. I do not completely understand it to write on it. So I want to look how others are doing it so I have some kind of idea.

Once that is over I will try to get pass them again. If I can do that then I will go back to playing talisman for awhile. Oh I uninstalled paltalk again also. the reason well. One person is a dick, and another person is a skank. Very simple reason really.

This week I will also have to be running the chicken farm. Parents are going on vacation so that just leaves me here. I have to gather eggs, and wash them. also wait on the egg customers. I am not looking forward to it, I rather  not have to do it at all. It the only way that I will have the house to myself though, otherwise my sisters  would drop by and do them. Unfortunately I will have one sister probably drop by just to do laundry, Blah on that. Well anyway  that is what is going on with me.

Here is my recent  game character all new outfit and stuff.

P.S. God I wish I looked like that in real life….

Grade in Business and Society

Well guys I wound up and have a B so far in my class. I had an A in the discussion board, but the essay i wrote knocked my grade to a B. I know people say that is good, but i still feel let down in myself. I know I can do better, I thought I did, but as you can see I am disappointed in the grade that I received. Now I am worried about the other essays' I have written and turned in. I am afraid that I am going to do awful on them. The essays’ can really drop my grade worse then an B. Just remember if I get an D in college that equals an F which is failure. I am just worried now. I know doing this online school was an experiment, but I have a lot in it already. Grants and financial aide, and money that I had to borrow. I  can not afford to fail. I can not afford to go to a different college until this one  year is over. Send me prayers people because I am so worried and I do need them.

Swamped

Well I have been really busy with school. I am a week a 2 weeks a head on my assignments. yesterday was the first day I actually took from studying. The assignments are sort of hard for me because I am constantly writing essays. They require a lot of thought.

I am bound and determined though to do an excellent job. Well I am hoping I am already. I do not know what grades I am getting on the assignments. Also when it comes to my other blogs. I sort of abandoned them. My top priority is school. That is what is most important right now. Some times I feel guilty about that, but I know I am in the right for choosing my school over writing blogs.

This blog on the other hand Is still getting attention. The reason why because I feel like going to school, is  part of me taking control of my life and trying to improve myself. It is also where I just  can write about anything and everything on my  thoughts. Thank you for not abandoning this blog either. I know my writing has slowed down. It still lives on though, I have not abandoned it either.  I also have started to play  talisman to help with giving myself a break. It helps my brain relax from writing papers and reading. If I didn’t have that lord know my head would have exploded by now. Here is a screen shot of my character in talisman.

Cold Out

It’s cold out tonight

The wind feels like Ice

My breath I can  see.

How I wish you were here tonight

To feel your warmth touching me

God I just long for you, I miss you

Oh how I need you

You’re everything I want.

You’re everything I need

I am begging you, begging you please.

Come to me.

 

Be with me while I sleep.

Hold me tight, lay next to me.

Oh please, Baby  Please

Be there for me.

Take this  cold away, and be with me.

assignment 1 and 2 due the 11th

Well I  started reading Unit  1 for my business class. I have to do two assignments  by  the 11th. One is an autobiography about me, the other is  about business . I have to explain certain terms in my own words in Assignment one.

Assignment 2. I have to describe some terms and pick out the best type of business or something like that. I am not  sure  really. I  do not have my  sheet in front of me. I  do know  that I really have to  start  reading.

Death Poems

 

 

The tear drops fall.

I put up a wall.

I let no one in.

Not  a single friend.

Alone I die.

To escape this life.

This pain

This strife

Surrounded by a wall

I tumble and fall

~*~

 

It doesn’t matter, if I live or die.

It doesn’t matter, hear my cry.

My breath escapes me.

I lay here, shaking.

My blood is draining.

My life is fading.

paintshop

i was bored so i  did  this  using the  standard paint shop not bad  for the first time drawing with it or  doing whatever you  call it.