Update to what is going to happen.

I am not feeling well today. The left side of my face is hurting really bad. I took some sinus medicine hoping that will help. I am not sure if that is my sinus that are hurting or not but at least I tried to get rid of my pain. Tomorrow I will be working on school  work so my blogs will not get updated until I am done with the assignment. I have to fully concentrate on school. I took a week off from studying which I could afford to do because I was a week a head. Now I am at everyone else pace because I did that. So remember folk my schooling comes first then my blogs if I have free time. I figured I would let you all know what was going on.

Survived

Well I  survived thanksgiving. Right now I am writing while I am a little pissed  because of  a political discussion. Some jerk said there was no such thing as children suicide bombers, and said that American were stupid people etc. And said we were military worshipers etc. Well right now I am so mad I want to  scream. I even proved my information that their was such a thing by posting evidence of  such from links  etc. This person was still blind. What kind of idiot  shuts themselves off to not even see the obvious. To me it is like  saying  the holocaust  didn’t happen. To me it is an injustice to not believe  to not know  what the true story is. Ignorance really pisses me off. I want to yell ”How can you not see this?” it hurts my heart when people are so blind.

Turkey Day Tomorrow

 

 

 

Well tomorrow is Thanksgiving. We will have the traditional family get together. We will have the turkey and the pumpkin pies. Also a total of 16 people. The house will be noisy. Brigitte is suppose to call me on Thanksgiving. I really hope She sticks with that plan. I seem to get the most lonely on holidays. the reason being everyone seems to have their loved one with them except for me. Holidays are really  depressing for me just because of that fact.

I would like to be able to share my holiday with the one I love but I can’t. I have so many longing and desires it isn’t even funny. It is sad I know. What can I do though. I am in love with someone who is 4 hours away from me. Yes so close yet so far. That is what happens when you meet someone online I guess. we make up plans and dreams in hopes that one day they will come true. We hang on to the hope the love until we can no longer bare it, the distance and the pain of not being able to be there physically. I plan on holding on and never let go.

You see I wear a wedding band, for my Brigitte. to me it represents what a wedding band means. We are committed and She is my partner. I  do not believe in giving up, at least not on someone that I love. Not on something that means the world to me. We love each other, but the times  now are terrible for us. That is why we are not  together physically. We both our ready but we have other issues that hinders us from living our lives together. We hang on though in hopes that one day our dreams will come true.

Good News

I  got  good news  I  raised my  C  that I  got  earlier  to an A, now I  have an A  grade average in Business Ethics.

I also  have been asked for link  backs to my  blog so  here is my  button for  this blog. Just copy and paste the html.

<a href="http://ghostingistakingcontrol.blogspot.com/"><img src="http://images.cooltext.com/1207097.gif" width="105" height="31" alt="Ghosting is taking control" /></a>

Sunday Part 2

I am not feeling as bad as I was this morning. I am still thinking about my Brigitte. I love her even though I wish things  could be different for us. I am really  glad  that we do have each other. Right now I am trying to think of things to do. There isn’t anything  that sounds interesting. I took some pain pills so they are  doing their thing right now. I keep checking my email obsessively. I tried to watch a move but i lost interest. I worked on my blogs again. I wish my readers would go up for all of them. also the followers. I have 41 followers on the Ghosting Miranda Blog. I would like to get to 50 or more, it is like a little goal. I keep thinking of Brigitte and wondering what she is doing right now. I wish she would call me today. I miss our Sundays  that we use to have together. I wonder what she truly thinks of me. Like what crosses her mind when she  thinks of me. I sometimes wonder if she can feel this over whelming feeling of love, that just  seems to  drive   a person to ache sometimes. I so wish I was in better circumstances to be able to  just go to her. Even though I am ready  to be with her. I have no money to be. She is so important to me.

Sunday

I am sitting here bored out of my mind. My thoughts are flighty today. I been thinking of the past about ex relationships to future assignments for school. My acid reflux disease has kicked in this morning. I am also tired but I do not want to take a nap. I worked on getting traffic for my blogs. Snuggles has been barking almost non stop. I  guess I am not really  feeling good at all today. A little depressed or just with the feeling of “here.” I am so not happy with my life right now. I am trying to change it though. I am going back to school. Well I am ready to leave here and move  in with Brigitte, but  that is something that may never happen with her. I love Brigitte. I want Her to be my  wife. She is not ready. Not really sure if she will ever be ready  for us to live together. I love Her and I can not imagine my life with out her. I have gotten so depressed before I know I wouldn’t be here on this earth if We were not in a relationship with each other. I would have given up a long time ago. I hang on for her. I hang on for the possibility of our future of being able to become one and live together. yeah I am officially  depressed today. I wish things were different for us. yeah I am really  down in the dumps today.

Working on Blogs

Well I been working on my blogs. I must really make pact with myself. My schooling comes first before the blogs. So remember I will be slow and they probably will not be updated in good timing, but I will try and  keep them going. Right now Snuggles is barking her head off. We are getting a new dishwasher installed. She is having a fit that some guy is in the house. Well I  added my nephew Lee onto my facebook. It seems like my family  has taken it over. LOL Lee is dressed in fatigues with his  gun etc. He is the one that is in Iraq.Well that is all I am writing for right now nothing else to say.

social network rant

Bitch moment

 

 

Well my A in business ethics was dropped down to a c because of a thing called a discussion board. I am pissed off. I am angry, I feel like Mr Socci might has well have given me an F. I  do not  converse well with people. I  have no opinion when coming to responding to people. So I sent him an email in the email I said this.

I really do not understand  what you want for a response for a discussion board. I do not have an opinon on what people seem to right. I do not disagree with them or agree. Am I  suppose to just add extra try and research for something to point out? I  do not really know where I went wrong on it. except the citations for the DB in the article.

he wrote me back an Email and  said  this.

You will have to have an opinion on what other student write that is what then DB is all about. Each assignment carries a deliverable length and you need to make sure that you meet it.

I feel like my  teacher is a bastard right now, perhaps when i am done being  pissed off at him then perhaps I will not  dislike him. right now I dislike him for giving me a damn C. Childish perhaps but that is how I am feeling and this is a place I  write my  feelings. Now I am troubled about my other assignments.

Blogs are up and running

 

Well as the title says blogs are up and running. I  have some free time and in  that free time I am going to work on my blogs. I have  Saw VI on the Ghosting Miranda II: The  Horror and I  have 2012 on Ghosting’s Movie House. You  can get to the blogs  by pushing their names on  my blog rolls or list, whatever that thing is called that names all my blogs on here. LOL